(05/03/18) time unknown
My mind where has it gone?
Lately I’ve been out of the zone
only hitting the bong
as i melt into the unknown
Feel me as I look at you
do you see my pain
My perception so skewed
with tears blending in the rain
Tired and alone
together not lonely
I fear you’re not home
so subconsciously worried
Meditate and numb
the pressure goes away
Twiddling your thumb
the fucking sweet escape
Blissfully appeased
Curiously at ease
Preciously released
Tastefully diseased
(03/01/2017) 7:33pm
(04/19/2018) 5:55pm
Three years strong
And I'm still not over
Not a day has gone by
Where I've been comfortably sober
Every pain aches
Since our nostalgia hasn't faded
I ask you to forgive yourself
Fuck this, I'm jaded
My abuse blames you
A suicide blamed me
When it comes down to it
We both died simultaneously
You've been longer away
Than the time we both stayed
You've been longer away
When you made me melt away
My old self I beg to you
To perceive from my way
My old self I scream for you
Don't forget what I say!
My old love I call to you
My third eye to yours
Can you hear me falling?
My blood hits the floor
Did we we wish we were dead
From the voices in our heads
I wish we had lived
Give yourself time to forgive
(4/19/2017) 3:48am
Help me get out of this daze
For years I'm reliant and turn to the blaze
Cognition is fading
The thoughts of me waiting
I'm out of my mind
Let the visions unwind
As I heal as I gain
As I suffer through pain
Let me shout
Let me sing
Let me do my own thing
While I sit here mediating over memories retained
As I fear
And I must
For we lost all our trust
Recollect the mistakes
from the past that we made
We were young and behaved
You restrained me to cave
curiously
I pondered you
Mysteriously
you haunt me too
Obsessing over
Not being sober
The imaginary nostalgia
Repeats in my amygdala
Screaming out to ya