haunted memories (April 19, 2017)

(4/19/2017) 3:48am

Help me get out of this daze

For years I'm reliant and turn to the blaze

Cognition is fading

The thoughts of me waiting 

I'm out of my mind

Let the visions unwind

As I heal as I gain

As I suffer through pain 

Let me shout 

Let me sing 

Let me do my own thing

While I sit here mediating over memories retained

As I fear

And I must

For we lost all our trust

Recollect the mistakes

from the past that we made

We were young and behaved

You restrained me to cave 

curiously 

I pondered you

Mysteriously 

you haunt me too

Obsessing over 

Not being sober

The imaginary nostalgia

Repeats in my amygdala

Screaming out to ya

wistful Washington winter (December 17, 2016)

(12/17/2016) 6:30pm

In my Washington winter

I consciously leave my window

open for you to see

My nostalgia is aching

From the thought of us waking

To that cool December breeze

I know why you chose

That one path on the road

Disregarding our memories unfold

You weren't right I was told...