heal

feel me as I look as you (May 3, 2018)

(05/03/18) time unknown

My mind where has it gone?

Lately I’ve been out of the zone

only hitting the bong

as i melt into the unknown

 

Feel me as I look at you

do you see my pain

My perception so skewed

with tears blending in the rain

 

Tired and alone

together not lonely

I fear you’re not home

so subconsciously worried

 

Meditate and numb

the pressure goes away

Twiddling your thumb

the fucking sweet escape

 

Blissfully appeased

Curiously at ease

Preciously released

Tastefully diseased

riffing off spiraling thoughts (April 16, 2018)

(04/16/18) time unknown

Remember? 

When I would pick you flowers? 

I waited hours and hours 

For you to come home to me

 

I long for you 

I beg

I reach for you inside my head

Initiate the better mind before bed

And ignore hallucinations instead 

 

I wrap my mind 

Around the sights inside 

Easily recognized 

The face I have disguised 

 

Love is nauseating

Constantly contemplating

Where am I taking 

The perfection I'm making

Out to be, I'm faking

All the rules creating

No more hesitating

Open up you're fading

Why the skies so bright and light I realize the pain inside the compromise the seeing eyes the happy cries mysterious nights 

you're but a beautiful memory, i apologize for not being strong, healing coming on (February 6, 2018)

(02/06/2018) 6:03am

A beautiful memory

Time wasted grieving 

Awakened with wisdom 

Sadness overcome 

Illness not done

Healing as one.

Funny how it has been so long

I apologize for not appearing strong :)

Healing coming on!

Open your eyes for it will be gone

 

Obsession into art

Art into collection

Undivided connection 

Unlimited attention