(05/03/18) time unknown
My mind where has it gone?
Lately I’ve been out of the zone
only hitting the bong
as i melt into the unknown
Feel me as I look at you
do you see my pain
My perception so skewed
with tears blending in the rain
Tired and alone
together not lonely
I fear you’re not home
so subconsciously worried
Meditate and numb
the pressure goes away
Twiddling your thumb
the fucking sweet escape
Blissfully appeased
Curiously at ease
Preciously released
Tastefully diseased
(04/16/18) time unknown
Remember?
When I would pick you flowers?
I waited hours and hours
For you to come home to me
I long for you
I beg
I reach for you inside my head
Initiate the better mind before bed
And ignore hallucinations instead
I wrap my mind
Around the sights inside
Easily recognized
The face I have disguised
Love is nauseating
Constantly contemplating
Where am I taking
The perfection I'm making
Out to be, I'm faking
All the rules creating
No more hesitating
Open up you're fading
Why the skies so bright and light I realize the pain inside the compromise the seeing eyes the happy cries mysterious nights