02/19/17 11:13am
Today I laughed, cried and smiled at the sun
I yelled I said "I am free"
I am almost finally free
Freed from you and freed from where I be
Because the future is there it's alive and it is so bright
All I really needed was to see and feel this light
(04/16/18) time unknown
Remember?
When I would pick you flowers?
I waited hours and hours
For you to come home to me
I long for you
I beg
I reach for you inside my head
Initiate the better mind before bed
And ignore hallucinations instead
I wrap my mind
Around the sights inside
Easily recognized
The face I have disguised
Love is nauseating
Constantly contemplating
Where am I taking
The perfection I'm making
Out to be, I'm faking
All the rules creating
No more hesitating
Open up you're fading
Why the skies so bright and light I realize the pain inside the compromise the seeing eyes the happy cries mysterious nights
(04/20/2018) 2:51pm
I am loved by no one, myself not enough
Once I lose it all they leave so abrupt
The damage is done and I cannot repair
What's left of who I am with no one to care
The pain is so empty and my mind is so numb
When the day breaks I feel like I'm no one
As night comes I am buried so deep
Into myself I am one, I am pure, obsolete ...
Being I am this sensation of talents
But no one to listen to the words of the imbalanced
We all don't know what's going on so who am I to judge
But since I'm in my own body, myself I must love
How can we possibly think to be
A collective group of love, a community
Why would anyone want someone tough yet so weak
Bury me alive, how I feel, I'm asleep