riffing off spiraling thoughts (April 16, 2018)

(04/16/18) time unknown

Remember? 

When I would pick you flowers? 

I waited hours and hours 

For you to come home to me

 

I long for you 

I beg

I reach for you inside my head

Initiate the better mind before bed

And ignore hallucinations instead 

 

I wrap my mind 

Around the sights inside 

Easily recognized 

The face I have disguised 

 

Love is nauseating

Constantly contemplating

Where am I taking 

The perfection I'm making

Out to be, I'm faking

All the rules creating

No more hesitating

Open up you're fading

Why the skies so bright and light I realize the pain inside the compromise the seeing eyes the happy cries mysterious nights