sober thots (October 6, 2017)

(10/06/2017) 4:03pm

Why do they say they are here?

When the darkness arises they all disappear

Why do they say that they care?

When I open my mouth they only stare

 

With all the damage I've done

Who have I become?

A shadow of myself

I am so numb

 

Dab myself dumb

What have I become?

A shell of myself 

Recognize that I'm fun

 

I miss the old me

Outgoing and free

Ignorant and seen

My own worst enemy

 

Depleted energy

Forgotten identity

Covered by an entity

That took all control of me

 

Lost under submission

To the drugs I am missin

I'm under remission

Will I be forgiven?

 

They say I'm an addict

But I swear I've adapted

To the lifestyle I'm after

Forget it I'm blasted

 

Is the problem me? 

I am chained but I'm free

The issue is simply 

To not pick up that first drink

(Written sober)