song lyrics

written for my love, my friend, a home, my zen (April 16, 2018)

(04/16/2018) 4:43pm

Met you with a pretty girl in hand

But I liked it I could understand 

My body vibrating

Connection unsaid, there is no debating

 

I moved a little closer,    baby

Your body near mine 

My world, melted away 

as I unwind

 

Moving a little closer              I've been

longing to be sober 

When was the last time 

you think saw me well?

Cause lately I do find 

myself hiding in my shell 

 

I didn't mean to find you weeping 

knowing you let go is so relieving 

When I see

That vulnerability

Not alone together but we are still free 

 

What have I said to make you question that

Honesty is all of me it is no harm in fact 

Look in my eyes obliviously disguised 

Reciprocal attraction causes me to ask why

 

Do I want you to see, the empty parts of me, chaotically and promising an open mystery

 

When our minds    

Connect 

I feel intertwined 

And yet

I fail to compromise

Conceptualizing time 

The energy flows out of me

The rest is left behind 

we are utterly at loss song lyrics (December 1, 2017)

(12/01/2017) 3:38am

I don't know what I'm doing

But I know I'm full of love

I'm having troubles pursuing 

Because I think I'm not enough

 

Only viewed for my body

Because the world is only lust

I re-evaluate around me

I understand that it's because

 

We are selfish we are scared

We are prideful we are dumb

We spend our lives attaching meaning

To falling hopelessly in love

 

When I think about old actions

And the pain I must have caused

I realize the role you gave me

Where i was utterly at loss

 

Anxiety's my future

Depression is my past

I can't forget, I worry 

Just go away at last

 

Depression is my comfort 

Anxiety my grasp

I hold these as security 

I'm afraid that I'll relapse

 

Each night I dream so vividly

The nostalgia- oh it aches

I haven't recreated memories 

as no one can ever take your place