(12/01/2017) 3:38am
I don't know what I'm doing
But I know I'm full of love
I'm having troubles pursuing
Because I think I'm not enough
Only viewed for my body
Because the world is only lust
I re-evaluate around me
I understand that it's because
We are selfish we are scared
We are prideful we are dumb
We spend our lives attaching meaning
To falling hopelessly in love
When I think about old actions
And the pain I must have caused
I realize the role you gave me
Where i was utterly at loss
Anxiety's my future
Depression is my past
I can't forget, I worry
Just go away at last
Depression is my comfort
Anxiety my grasp
I hold these as security
I'm afraid that I'll relapse
Each night I dream so vividly
The nostalgia- oh it aches
I haven't recreated memories
as no one can ever take your place